I could not be happier than i am right now. Things are going sooo great. I'm 5 months pregnant, and found out yesterday its a girl. Tom is soo happy. He wanted a boy, but as soon as i told him he said "im having a lil girl??" His excitement made me cry. it was amazing. I didnt think much about it before, but i just recently started writing in a journal for the baby. Telling her about her movements, and things she does i notice throughout the day. I even update weekly about what physical changes shes going through. Its all soo exciting. i love looking for clothes, and toys, and just all together baby items. Ahhh.. its all just so exxciting. now we have to think of names. I really like Karissa Renee, but we havent talked about it much, since we didnt know till yesterday what we were having, and hes always working. im soo happy =)
my positive ovulation test.. that was just as exciting as seeing a positive pregnancy test =)

\ my first test... from the dollar store
\another test with the directions. lol
after i told tom, he didnt trust the dollar store test, so on his way home he stopped and grabbed a clear blue test from CVS..

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20 weeks.. her face is looking down. the big blackness on her head is her head.lol the small blackness next to it is her ear. and her eyes, nose and mouth are facing down!! It takes a min to see it.. i sent this to tom and he said she didnt look normal, till he came home and i showed him.. <3

more to come as the time goes on!!

So i am at a standstill with what im going to do. My dream now, and always has been, has been to become a doctor. I was looking into diferent medical schools, and yeah.. This is going to be harder and longer then i thought. i need to get my bachelors degree before i can apply, which i figured i needed some sort of degree. thats only common sense. But i dont even have my associates. Ive transfered so many times, credits have and have not transferred. I really dont think i can get a bachelors degree from a community college, and honestly, i dont want to. i want it from a credited school. I really wish i had the option to go away to school when i graduated high school. But i didnt =/ i can go away to school now, but i dont want to now. I would rather commute to a school. and continue with my life here. But of corse, im afraid to transfer credits again, because i have no idea whats going to be transferred and whats not. Plus money.. oh the joys of school, and the money that needs to be paid. Financial aid is not available and i dont have the funds to pay for it on my own. Of corse i could take out student loans, but i really really dont want to do that. because medical school is going to need student loans, and close to 100 grand  + in those. i dont want to add another thousands and thousands of dollars to that. I have no idea what to do. =/

Wow, its certainly been a long time since ive been on here. My laptop cord stopped charging my lap top, so i dont get on much, unless im on toms, which isnt that much, obviously.

So much has been going on. I PASSED MY PHARMACY TECHNICIAN CLASS WITH 2 PTS AWAY FROM AN A. So i got a B which soo makes me the happiest person. I got a B on my final, which i was so happy about. Makes me feel much better about taking the state exam. And once thats done, ill be finished. Finally, i have accopolished something with my life, and i couldnt be happier.

Work is going good. Working almost 40 hours a week, so im a busy girl, but im making the money, so i cant complain one bit. I love filling prescriptions, its fun! And i learn a lot from there. Im thinking about going to school strictly for pharmacy. I really enjoy it, and wow, walmarts starting pay for pharmacists, is 118,000 a year. more then being a nurse. but i just started, so i still have to see if i really enjoy it enough to go through 8 more years of school. It may be great money, but i def. want to be happy with my career choice.

Im going to start my OWN garden, well flower garden in the back yard. Woohoo! ive always helped my gramma with hers, but im going to get my own going in the next couple of days. Work consumes me though. And im working an over night shift. I totally agreed to it, not realizing how tired its going to make me. Monday i work 11-7 then will come back at midnight and work til 9, ooooh, thats not going to be too fun, oh well. I wonder if ill make a lil more working the over nite shift. who knows?!

Ugh, im STILLwaiting for my tax return. It was supposed to be here my may 4. Which was crazy to me, since i sent mine out 3 days before toms, and he got his like 2 or 3 weeks ago. So i went online to check and it didnt give me a date anymore, just said it was being processed, so after a bigillion phone calls, and 20 min on hold listening to horrible music, i finally was able to talk to someone, and i guess when i was filing, i was missing some form for my school. So now i have to wait till they send that to me, and wait for them to get it and re-evaluate everything. Im just tired of waiting, i wanna get contacts, get some new clothes, since i havent gone clothes shopping in years, except for the occasional shirt here or there, or work clothes. boo.. i need some clothes. Plus, im using 128 dollars to take my pharmacy exam, and 45 of it to get the review book. So the sooner i get that money, the sooner i can take the test. Since most of my checks go to bills and gas for my car.

Oh well, everything will fall into place, and it will all work out in the end! YAY!

well i finally am off work, and i worked 38 hrs this week, so its time to relax. i have the next to days off, so tomorrow, im going to relax, then visit a friends parents, since yesterday was the one year anniv. of his tragic death, so it will be nice to see them again and see how everyone there is doing. Then saturday  im going to drive to plainfield then isu with the fam and mat's fam to tawnys graduation. I cant believe shes graduation college. Im so proud of her.  She may be my lil sister, but i really look up to her. Im so happy for her.

Well i think its time to get off, its getting late, and im tired. It was a long day. ill try to update more often, since i told myself i would i really want to do it.

Good nite